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Originally Posted by granite1
i feel totally embarrassed that she hugged me in my dream and that i was OK with that because in real life i wouldn't be .i wouldn't want her thinking that it would be and that i want her to hug me. i also feel like all those feelings i had were just wrong,and scary because in real life i don't think it would be OK to feel them . like feeling so comforted by my T(i should be able to comfort myself)i wouldn't want her to think i need her to comfort me even if i want it because it isn't OK at all. i know it isn't her job and i believe it would freak her out. i don't want her to change our relationship because she is scared that i want to cross all kinds of boundaries.when even if i did i know i wouldn't.i don't think i could handle that at all.i mean i freak out that i did something horribly wrong because a chair is moved 
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wow...I totally get that. I feel the same way, scarey isn't it?
I liked your dream, it's cool that your T protected you in it, and you let her. Maybe some day you will get to the point where you can let her comfort you? But it's ok if you don't want that now.