something new coming up. that i feel unworthy... disgusting.. undesirable because the only one who wanted me so much that he just had to have me was my own father.

what... what kind of twisted freak does that make me? i didn't want it. i wish it had never happened. i don't think about it, now. except when memories force their way through. i don't want someone else to rape me, either.

but... i just...

... i don't know.