I feel I am failing with my T big time - all the negative stuff is as bad as ever right now - but I have managed to track down a pdoc who will see me without a GP referral (more expense though!).

Seeing him in a few days and I am terrified - and think the closer it gets the worse I am going to feel.

Would be great to hear what others first experience of a pdoc was (positive only at this stage would be helpful so that I do not bolt in the opposite direction! ) - thanks Soup