Well, I survived my first visit. I'm such a novice that I really didn't have any idea what to expect. I didn't really have to explain too much detail to him during this visit, so that was good. I was just taking in how therapy is supposed to work. He did a bit of talking about himself with the purpose of explaining who he is and how he approaches therapy. I did have to bite my lip a few times not to laugh, but not at myself - at him. He was a bit different than I had imagined. Well actually I'm not sure how I actually imagined he would be, but he was definitely different. Within five minutes I knew he had survived stage 4 cancer a number of years back, his wife left him two weeks after his diagnosis, and on his bucket list are skydiving, scuba diving, and walking across hot coals. He also visits his grave plot from time to time at a local cemetery because it is peaceful and serene. Oh wait, and that he is almost blind in one eye but is having surgery on that eye soon. Eesh. That was a lot of info for me to process in the first few minutes. (The 45 minutes really was NOT all about him, but wow, he really just put a lot out there right at the start.) I guess if I had to describe him, he seemed like a therapy version of Mister Rogers (yes, like the PBS show from when I was a kid). I'm really not sure if I want to do this or not. I guess I'm glad I went, but I'm not really sure if this is going to be a fit for me or not. Oh well. I guess I have to start somewhere. I'm going to take a few days to think about it and try to decide if I want to schedule a follow-up.

Thanks everyone for your feedback on the nervous laughing thing. <3