Angry, sad, irritated, fed-up! But nobody leaves me alone, they KEEP bugging me, when all I want to do is sleep it off. So then, I yelled at my poor daughter bcoz I didn't feel like making her what she wanted for supper (2 much GD effort) and then my mom gave her what she wanted, and she probly went to bed hurt, I'm hiding with my shame and guilt in my room. Sometimes I question God's motive for putting her in my life, is He trying to show me how badly I suck? I'm honestly no good at being a care-taker. A provider, yes, a listener, yes, a guide or help, yes, that came naturally, but N0T taking care of somebody else 24/7, I'm WAY to self-centered for that. That much is CRYSTAL clear but I'm stuck at home being miserable, probly making my daughter feel unwanted. God I suck
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Not looking for pity, just ranting about being inadaquate and the shame that follows.