It's not that i wanted to begged to come back, i knew that wouldn't happen but it was the only way in that moment of communicating that i was struggling. I think it just brought home what i already knew, they only care for the amount of time you're with them, soon as you walk, you're out their mind. Not their problem.

It's mostly sorted, i did contact her and tell her why i did what i did and she was lovely about it and i am going back to discuss what happened. But i still feel so sad about it all.