I've never realized how alone I actually I am. I don't have any close friends. I don't have any friends to call on the weekends and make plans with. I've never had a real relationship with a boy. I'm too afraid to talk to my parents about anything. I only talk to my older brother every couple of months.

Everyone expects so much out of me. My mom wants me to be a nurse. My friends think I could be a model. My teacher has told me I'm supposed to be in an honors class. But I don't care about any of this. I just want people to love me for who I am without judging or trying to change me. But I doubt that will ever happen. I want this pain to go away.

I will always be alone. I don't care about anything anymore, just dying.

I wish someone would take the time to actually talk to me. My mom has given up on trying to figure out what's wrong. My friends and teachers don't even notice.

I've never felt more alone in my entire life.
It's amazing how you can go to school and sit in a room full of people your age and feel so alone and lost.