Yea coming to understanding that DID wasnt a part time thing I could just get over was a new thing for me too. In some weird way having my child end up in foster care woke me up to the fact that I had to give up on the short term bandaids and learn how to take care of it forever for there is no cure for dissociating. Dissociating is there forever and I will always forever know how to dissociate. Since it is ongoing and not curable I had to learn things that would work for it not just today but things that would work even years down the road. And like you I am ok with that.