Oh my, I just posted a reply to your post. I am new here in Psych Central so I am not familiar with it the way others are. I clicked 'Post Quick Reply' but I didn't see my post and so I have to do it again.

I, too, am sorry you feel that way. And yes, I also share the same experience and it really is difficult to overcome but I know there's a way out of this. And I am working on it.

Sometimes, we are the only ones who are making our lives too difficult. I think you are feeling alone and lost because we are allowing yourself to feel that way. Life is about making choices. If you choose to be sad, life won't be selfish to give it to you and same is true when you choose to be happy.

I believe that people who know us actually love us. We just don't give them a chance to show they care for us. One factor could be that we think we are not worth loving. You have to love yourself more than anyone else and you have to feel good about yourself because when you do, people will love you, too. Busy yourself by doing things that could help you achieve your full potentials. Focus on where you are good at and strive to be the best person you can be. Life is too short and unpredictable. We never know when it's going to end. We are human beings and being so means being lucky that we were given the power to think of what's best for us.

Sometimes, the helping and healing should come from us. It feels good when someone finds time to help you but everything is up to us. Always choose to be happy Your family and friends love you, that's for sure. And regarding the expectations you are getting from them, just let them talk. If you can't stop them, just hear what they're saying but don't listen to it. If you know what you really want in life and who you want to be in the future, you shouldn't get affected.

I hope this helps. Pardon my grammar