Okay, Becca, I hear you. I pray to god & whatever goodness there is, no religion but a strong belief in our community here and the support we build within it. You've come a long way, have learned to read yourself so well and the head off crises with so many coping skills you didn't have when you came. I know you have the fortitude to hold on. Keep posting here as much as you need to, and ask for whatever help you may need.

There's a super full moon tonight. Biggest of the year I believe. I don't know whether such things affect you.

Roadie