We've been hanging out a lot lately. He'dbeen drinking and said he still loved me and I told him I still loved him too. And honestly I do. I remember the reasons why I broke up with him. I still love him, but I don't want to be in a relationship with him. I don't know how to explain it exactly without getting into it all (the whole story of it all) but basically, I feel like I could date him again. But I'm sorta seeing someone else right now, but I'm thinking of ending it with him because it's more of an on again off again relationship and I keep going back more for the company(loneliness) rather than because of a real connection. Though sometimes I feel a real connection with him too, but it's never been easy, he's too distant. I don't have too many friends at the moment. Things used to be different, I've become too reclusive in recent years. Anyway, that's another story. So now I'm at a loss as to what I'm doing. I feel so confused. I want to be with him(my most recent ex that just called me) without really being exclusive. That goes against everything I believe which is also confounding. I told him we can talk again next time we see each other, but I really don't know how to explain how I feel. I'll sleep on it, but no guarantees that will help any.