tks all.

Sigh. T reminds me that everyone who asks for home help has to go through the "toilet and refrigerator" check as I called it. That HE has to be here too is something else. I wish not, but it won't happen if he isn't. He's too nice to do this, as I don't think he has for any other patient. Maybe if it helps me, it will be something he offers for other PTSD patients having troubles like me? IDK. I think only half of the PTSD ppl are alone like I am.

Funny, you spend your "life" investing in a relationship so that you expect them to be there when you need them... and not. Often I wish I were dead; when I think that if I knew all I would have to go through (what I've gone through already) and ALONE... I wish I had died in the accident.

guess the stress is just growing. grrrr