I will give it a try. If there are any you can recommend that would be great. I've honestly never bothered because nothing else has worked, so why would meditation? But anyway I'll look into it. Thanks for the suggestion.

I tried to talk to my roommate again just now (I had been sending her texts trying to explain that I need her to respect my need for peace nd quiet and to not bring people over for a while... I gues I am being that crotchety old lady now) and she said she wasn't getting any of my texts and just pretty much blew me off and ran out the door with her husband and friend (I live with a married couple). I feel like such a loser.

Went out last night to a friend's rooftop party and the entire time was just listening to myself having conversations and I'm like, god I am so obnoxious sounding it's no wonder no one likes or cares about me, except when they're drunk, and will talk to anyone.

My roommate and I used to try to make plans to hang out because our schedules are so different we never see each other.. But lately she barely talks to me.

Had to take 2mg of Xanax to get any sleep last night even though I had been drinking.

Fml.