Just kind of an update I suppose...

I've been seeing the counselor almost every week ever since I started...I managed to share some things with her that I don't normally tell people, that was pretty difficult. But I did it...I don't feel any different though...

It's getting to the point where sometimes I can't feel. Those nights are horrible, and normally end in a total mental breakdown...I don't really know where to turn, but I guess it doesn't matter...The past few days have been really hard. I don't really know how to explain it. More like a prolonged breakdown, without the breakdown part? Like all the emotions before a breakdown have been going on for a few days now even though I break down some nights...It's kind of weird. I don't really get it...

Not much for an update, sorry...I just know I haven't posted in a while so I figured I should say something...

JDA