hey, JDA. Thanks for the update. You seems to have been stuffing your feelings down for a long time. You have taken important steps to voice them and seeing the counselor regularly is a great thing to do. You have years of feelings stuffed down and those feelings of breakdown are them coming to the surface. Please continue to put those feelings into words and to talk about them. You have held these feelings inside for so long. It will take time to recognize them all and to speak about them. Have patience! You are making wonderful progress! All the best to you!!