rainbow_rose: I'm sorry I didn't see your thread until now.
I could have written what you've posted. I've been aware of my T's looks for a long time now. Her eyes are very pretty, and I emailed her once that looking into them was as pretty as Niagara Falls! I was so, so embarrassed at writing that. It could be that I told her it too; I don't remember now though it was traumatic at the time. She said "thank you" and somehow it was all right to tell her that sometimes I was attracted to her.

I agree with everything Towanda said. It's normal to have all different kinds of feelings for our Ts. They aren't bad or wrong. In our case, it doesn't mean we're gay, either. The T's roles just get all mixed up. Sometimes mine is my mother, sometimes a friend, partner, or sister. She's always my T, though, and it's safe to allow all the feelings about her to come out in the open.

I'm sorry you're so uncomfortable with your feelings. Try just accepting them as par for the course. Talking about them with your T will be productive because she will reassure you that your feelings are okay with her. I do understand the weirdness you feel about it, though.