Arianna,

Your words sound exactly like mine. My problems started with a known situation (that was a trauma). I agree with you.....I won't allow myself to go to sleep because I don't want to go through the nightmares. My Pdoc had given me seroquel to deal with my anxieties & the other things that I have been experiencing. I decided to take a larger dose of the seroquel at night to see if it might help with sleep. I finally experiemented with the dose until I increased it to the point that it knocks me out......no dreams.....no nothing. The dose I use knocks me out for about 8 hours which allows me to get a great rest. I still have some problems with the inbetween (sleep & wake).....that is when I am also haunted with the dreams.....(haven't found anything to help with that time. For me, it is the seroquel that allows me to have sleep......without it now, I can go days without sleep.

I also use the seroquel for my horrible anxiety attacks that keep hitting. When I can't handle the anxiety, I take the same amount I do to sleep....it knocks me out & then I sleep soundly. When I wake up, it takes me awhile to remember what it was that caused my anxiety which gives me some relief from my anxieties too.

I know for me, I would be very happy if I wasn't depending on meds to make me sleep, but the truth is, I need sleep & that is the only way I can get it without being continually woken up by nightmares.

Hope you can find something natural to help you, but if not.....maybe your pdoc can help you find something that will work for you. It sometimes takes some experimenting to find out exactly what will work.

Debbie