I read your kind replies to others and yes, I'm the random person who gets only criticism and rejection. Evryone is nice to everyone except for me. I'm always the one who gets attacked by incredibly wise people who can judge me though they don't know me. Everything I do or say it's wrong. Even if it's suh a silly thing as the sanity score. Even if the other person actually does see my point, the attacking has to take place, never mind my feelings. I'm always amazed when people attack me, though they in fact agree with me. And I'm always attacked when I refuse to pretend to be ****ing happy. Oh! I admit I'm depressed and the sexual abuse affects me, sorry for not using Bible as my signature or some optimistic quotes. I'm not happy, I'm not well, I'm depressed because I've been abused and now I explore the depths of secondary wounding. There's no one who experienced that much of it. EWveryone's against me, everyone wants to hurt me and see me crying. I hope you're happy now, you won.