((((Hugs Helion)))

I hear you, it IS a challenge and any time you feel you need to just talk, just post here if you need to. People here can relate and go through it as well. And there are some that have gained on it and can offer you support from experience. I didn't want to be down, but I wanted you to know that I get the same cycle of emotional struggles. And it took me a few months to find a therapist who is good AND works with me on a sliding scale, otherwise I just could not afford it. But if you can find a therapist that specializes in PTSD therapy, it is well worth it, but it does take time.

Make sure you get rest, and exercise, eat right, take vitamins and be very patient with yourself. Do your best to have a safe place, like your bedroom where you can just be quiet if you need it. Know that this will take time and in time you will slowly get to a better state of mind. I hear you as I said, my financial situation is not so hot either. Maybe if you could find a part time job, because it is good to get out.
Summer is here, maybe find an easy going summer job, nothing too demanding.

Like I say below my name, "one day at a time".

Hugs,
Open Eyes