Hey everyone...

Just found out today....my mom has cancer. She's been spotting since February and just now went to see a gyno...I've been begging her for months to see a doc, but she always tries to tough it out...she's lost so much weight...

They found a tumor the size of her fist in her vaginal canal. The doctor can't even find her cervix behind it. The doc tried to probe the tumor, but it just started bleeding everywhere. What my mom first thought were blood clots are actually some sort of gelatinous sustance secreted by the tumor. She now has to see an onocologist to determine if it's malignant.

I can't believe this is happening. I'm just numb. I don't have anyone else but her. She is my everything. I have no idea how we're going to pay for the medical bills. And I'm getting ready to start my next semester at my university...I had to take a hiatus last semester because my mom had to be hospitalized due to an foot infection (she's a diabetic), so I can't take another semester off or I'll lose my finalcial aid. But I can't just leave her. And I'm so scared for her. I feel like I can't breathe.

I really need some support right now. I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't lose her. If I lose her, I'll lose my mind. She's only 48. God, this can't be happening! She's my mother !

Please, if anyone has had experience with this type of disease I'm open to advice.

And please, pray for her or send positive energy her way. I can't stand the thought of her being sick. I just can't.

Sincerely,

Alexiel