ive had it done to me so so often.. it makes me feel so so awfully alone.. its like i have the plauge or something.. or that i have this huge sticker on me that says HATE ME PLEASE but i dont.. i just dont understand it.. i so bad deep in my heart just want to be loved like others are but i am not the type that will fall down on my knees and beg for it.. nor am i the type to go seeking for the attention.. i am just quiet.. and i guess since mama's passing away last year i have withdrawn even more inside myself.. but it doesnt mean i dont want to be loved by others anymore.. im just scared.. my T recently does not offer anymore hugs.. after 4 years of ther*py together.. at first she taught me how important they were and gave them freely all the time and then just cut them off about 4 months ago.. i realized something was wrong when i asked if i could give her a hug bye after session and she hesitated and said "oh just a quick one".. she said its not me but something else.. after she explained her reason i still dont buy it.. i still feel like its me.. like i did something..
but still others around me.. even places i enter online treat me as if im something to be ignored or not wanted.. i dont know what i do.. i try to talk.. but its so hard to let out whats inside.. its so hard to trust.. all ive been doing lately is just sleeping to try to hide from everything so i dont think as much..
im so sorry you feel the way you do.. many safe hugs to you if its ok.. i know that feeling all too well and it doesnt feel good..
(((((((((((((ozzie)))))))))))))))))

Kat