Well said Diana and welcome both of you to PC forums. There are many caring people here going through similar and different issues and problems. (including myself)

Redenz, have you tried contacting mental health services in the county you live in? They usually have free or subsidized scaled costs. Also you can try some of the depression workbooks and they should have something like that in your local library so you could avoid the expense that way too.

After many MANY years of suffering both severe major depressive disorder, anxiety, AND childhood and adult ADHD I finally sought treatment. It's helping though it took about a year and a half of trying diff. med combinations and then seeing a T to help address some of the issues but 2 years cannot erase the accumulation and buildup of 30 years unfortunately. Try to stay strong and realize there WILL be ups and downs (today's a down day for me) but keep trying.

I'm here if you or anyone reading this needs or wants to talk or a virtual shoulder to cry on!