It sounds like your dealing with the flu and a un-supportive family. I know it's lonely but that's why we're here to support each other

Should've, could've and would've have all been outlawed in our because it's S***ing on yourself. Once you apologize it's in their court to forgive or let their bitterness eat them alive. Really not your problem at that point.

As for your aunt she may understand. What she said to you maybe how she feels when dealing with her own issues. I was the first in my family to get help and medication, later my grandma started medication and said she wish they had that when she was younger.

The clarity is for yourself because mental illness is stigmatized. Try to stay strong and keep those appointments because that will really help you get out of the depression. You may want to go on a walk just to get out and catch some sun.