catgoesmeow- Thank-you,
Firesa- Thank-you for your suggestion, I fill out the fasfa first of January whether I plan to attend school or not, just in case.

Perna- He wasn't a financial aid officer he was a temporary secretary, for that day.HE does not get a choice it's up to the government how much I'm allowed to take out. I am not nor will I ever go to that limit. There are payment options that fit any budget. Just because this state is lucky enough to have extremely low tuition they have no rights to judge my past amounts un-needed because they have not looked at other states tuition costs.

Perina & Oxidopamine,-
Promises are not allowed to be broken, especially to a man that I respect and honor. When I give my word it is set in stone no matter what. It's not given often or lightly. I didn't even promise in my wedding vows! I have never made a promise to my child, I don't plan to ever either. I only make promises to my husband when he's concerned about my safety. It kinda bothers me that you would refer to keeping a promise so lightly as a "nice gesture", or "not a reason". At times this promises has kept me alive!

It's not that nor have I ever NOT wanted to go to school and I have never taken school lightly. I do and always have had big dreams. Yes, I have failed at school several times all due to MI related problems. I have a team of doctors I trust and hospitalizations will not interfere with my education, this time, according to therapist, and pdoc. We are trying to set up several options so that becoming homeless wont stop us either.

Even if I end up only being able to work sporadically, part-time it's a huge accomplishment. I could have never predicted how hard MI would effect my life and it kills me watching my younger sister encountering the same thing. If it was all about brains and tests I'd be out by now but schools love to change their structure and affiliation mid-degree.