I know exactly what you mean. I have lost so much memory over the past couple of years. I believe its from meds because I never had this problem before being on meds the past few years. I have lost a lot of my memories over my life in just the past couple of years. Not sure if its from mania causing brain damage or the medications. Sometimes I start to remember things but this has just been recently. Its like I have been robbed of some of the best moments of my life. i hate it.... I look at the pictures but I dont remember being there. I dont remember what was going on or why we look the way we do or why our facial expressions are like they are. It drives me insane that I cant remember stuff. It makes me cry a lot