Hey, thnx for your reply it triggered smthg in me, it made me feel- smthg i have not done in months. Im so glad your in the right path and that your optimistic about it. Its pretty amazing that u try to brighten your posts if ur life is goin pretty bad. U still amaze me, ur just so optimistic generally. I don't understand how some1 can be like that - ever. Just keep on goin in the right direction and continue to amaze others with your growth. I don't understand how u do it. Im so depressed and i cant ever think of smthg good, all my thoughts are about suicide and worthlessness. At least some ppl. Should grow from suffering and torture. Gluck. Oh and btw im no superstar im like just the opposite if that plus more. It could be more like suicidal or immune2pain rather then superstar. GLUCK!!!!!!!!