Wow. You are taking so many risks with your T. It really is admirable. I hope you continue to feel safe and connected enough to do so.

If I can ask, how did your T know what the Teddy bear meant? Did you spell it out to her or did she just get it from previous talk of you wanting to be a bear?

I only ask because I am having a dilemma lately that I think affects T and probably all my relationships. I tend to do/say things that I think are very deep/filled with underlying meaning/metaphorical, but people don't seem to get it or reciprocate (from what I can tell). It is very disheartening.