Thanks Moremi,

I just can't shift it. I have written a bit in the BP Society. I am dead inside. Outside I'm 'ok' for people. I think I have pushed people away. I think I need to be punished. I am punishing myself. I don't think I can do this anymore. I have no friends. No one texts me etc. I text I don't get any in reply. I feel so lonely and sad. I wish I wasn't here. I went to badminton today and lost all bar 1 game. I was absolutely crap. I never suck that much. I'm not me anymore. I don't know who I am. But I'm not me.

I don't want to be here anymore!