Why is there no middle ground between waiting for a doctor's appointment and going to the hospital?

We're not supposed to talk about suicide here but why isn't there anyone like a sponsor I can call right now? Before you say call the suicide hotline: I won't. All it is is some superficial interaction with a person who keeps you on the phone until they call the police. That's not what I want. I want someone who knows me who can really talk to me.