I really don't think you are just any client to her SarahMichelle all you've shared makes it very obvious you hold a special place in her heart. Right now with being away and her own difficulty in not giving you the care you need and she knows you need she is probably frazzled herself completely; this has to be so hard on all of you, you've been through tons with her regularly vanishing on you ... but hold on to what you know to be true; someone who doesn't care about you a lot isn't going to be doing things like visiting you at home after surgery; giving you dolls; leaving their dog with you ... and that's just a beginning. Money issues suck; but your T cares about you immensely