Dear T,

I hope you're all packed or are you doing that tomorrow? I think you said you'll be back at night so you'll be on the plane most of the day. I wonder if you would email that you're back without my asking. I forgot to ask you this time. You'll probably be too tired, so I will email you first, and you can confirm my appointment for Wednesday.

I will pray that you don't miss the plane(s) and that you get back safely! I wonder if you thought about me at all while you were away. Maybe when you were taking photos of all that beautiful scenery?

I hope you had a great vacation! Really I do. In spite of my extreme jealousy and sadness, which we will have to discuss. By the time I see you I probably will not think about crying anymore. I'm already holding back my feelings from the almost 3 weeks since my last session. I think I coped pretty well but the whole time I felt unsettled and like a part of me was missing. I didn't miss you; that's not what I mean. You were holding my hand the whole time. That was the image I focused on. I mean that part of me was missing without you, like a baby needs its Mommy. I was okay but not okay and I don't know how to explain that any better.

I hope that we can do a lot of EMDR and concentrate on how to help me. I feel like my Self is a little stronger but I still need you.

Love,
rainbow