So, I am 24, never been kissed, never been on a date, still a virgin but recently I have really been working on this. It is important to me to start the process of getting myself into a relationship and I really think part of that is getting comfortable with seeing myself in a sexual way.
I have been masturbating since high school and all but the idea of sharing myself with another in a sexual way just stops me dead in my tracks. I want it, and I really can't overstate that, but I just don't go there. So, I am trying to take baby steps, I started having sex talk on chat rooms, even sent some sexy (not nude) pictures but I can't shake the guilt and feeling that this isn't "healthy." Then again, I have no clue what is "healthy." How do you know? Is the chat room stuff a good step for me? HELP! I am so confused and conflicted...