Well it's done-the send button was just hit! I ended up writing 3 pages on a word document and attaching it lol...I know he will get to it tomorrow at some point. I'm sooo nervous-because I wrote just briefly that I have had sexual thoughts about him and that I'm mortified about it-esp. considering the transference I have going on for him. I went into all of the different elements of my sexuality and mental health that are impacted by this-and it feels sooo good to get it out. Sooo now it's wait and see what he says-I asked him to let me know that he got it and that its okay to send that type of letter. Ill keep yall posted if ya want. thanks again!!