So I have a doctors appointment in like 10 days, and I plan to tell the doctor that I am depressed and think about suicide a lot. Interacting with people, especially people I don't know or people of authority like the doctor really freaks me out. So I want to be as prepared as possible.

I would prefer being treated with phychotherapy rather then some type of drug, but I don't know how much say I'm going to have. Can anyone tell me things I'll probably be asked or how I should tell the doctor? I'm really really nervous. What if I can't explain myself well? What if they don't take me serious? What if I say something wrong? If I tell the doctor I'm taking some type of drug will they put it in my file? Can I get in trouble?

I'm really hopeful that I'll finally be getting help but I'm also really scared. Can someone please help me out?