my score was a 144....i been having a lot of problems in life and its hard to cope with...i am hurting people that i love and most of all almost losing my boyfriend...i been on my last thread with him....i think i need a lot of help and i think i have bipoar and mania....i hate feeling the way i do also i have thoughts on killin myself...im short fueled, things that get my mad when they really should...i feel like i cant trust anyone anymore, im hard and myself, i really keep my thoughts bottle up and i feel like i cant talk to anyone about it and i shut down the people that are close to me and wont talk at all....right now me and my boyfriend are kinda separted and i hate being apart from him but i do think in a way its for the best if anyone can help and put some input in it would be greatly apprecitated of what i should do next...thanks