Thanks Hankster! I have thought a lot about these issues-and I don't feel guilty or bad for having the sexual thoughts or even masturbation-but I'm addicted to porm in that I cannot masturbate without it-and the time spent on it has become too much. I hate the progression of the material I watch-it gets more aggressive and punishing the longer I have been engaging in it-and I don't like that. Also it interferes with me expressing my sexuality with men...it is making my fear if intimacy worse...because in ashamed.
Soo my T wrote me this morn and said he would read it and we will process it next session...fun fun!! Lol