Dear T,

I know you tell me I'm safe with you but after events at the weekend I don't know if I can feel safe with anyone. I'm sorry I was mute and unable to open up, you're right I am hiding and getting ready to run. You said something that puzzled me, you said you would listen and that you would believe me no matter what, believe me? Why would I think you or anyone wouldn't believe me? I mean, I don't trust you but I didn't think you wouldn't believe me, I have no reason to lie to you (unless it's that I'm ok when I'm really not). But now you've said it it's made me wonder, would you not believe me? The thought hadn't crossed my mind but now I can't stop worrying about it