Hello,

Well, I am very sad because I feel like I am losing my will to do anything. I can't seem to get the kitchen cleaned up. The garage is full of trash and I can't motivate myself to get out there an clean it. I can't seem to get the laundry put away. I only drag myself out to work each day because I don't want my kids to go hungry or have no lights or water. But at the same time, I am unable to get myself in to the grocery store and we end up broke and I have barely bought any groceries. I feel completely exhausted and warn out.

I have enough purpose in life to take care of my boys but otherwise I feel completely used up. I am totally stressed and lonely. I'm tired of working, I'm tired of running errands. I'm tired of being responsible for taking care of everyone all the time and everything being my responsibility. I know it is wrong to think so, but I wish someone would take care of me for a change. I wish someone else would pay the bills and think what to put out for dinner and actually cook it. But I know I can't rely on anyone and I'm so tired.

I don't know what to do or how to get past it. I'm tired of being poor and only living paycheck to paycheck, but I can barely do the job I already have so i can't get a second job. I feel totally unappreciated and not very important.

I don't have a question. I just had to vent, I guess. Thanks for listening.