I have asked myself all those questions granite- and I don;t have the answers either. All I know is I just keep going, adn something happens that makes it possible for growth to happen.

I don't think T knows your story exactly, but I think she probably has a pretty good understanding of you, just based on your behavior ("Good or bad"). You know- the way she observes you when you're sitting there quietly and when you're talking. The way you respond to things she says... those are all clues to you and what kinds of things you have possibly been through in your life. I think T's see a lot- and learn from what thye see in other people and then connect those admitted behaviors to others they see gtat might not talk about it. My T knows me pretty well, and she just started hearing things from me about my past.

That's about asll the guesses I have for now. Sorry I don't know much more.