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Originally Posted by likelife
Does it feel like some of the ambivalence about her being important to you stems from her having been gone and the money part? When I start to feel like "just T's job," I definitely want to pull away.
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No, I don't think the money is why I want to pull away, though I hate thinking about the money. I think wiki's post is more accurate.
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Originally Posted by WikidPissah
sitting would be really hard for me, I would be too nervous! I don't think it's weird though, it takes a lot of self awareness too do that...bravo.
Glad your T is back, don't push her away because you needed her, just let the joy of having her back flow.
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I don't know if I CAN just sit there; I did for 5 minutes at my last session, holding her hand, and I felt self-conscious.
What I bolded is so on target, and so poetic. I need her and that's scary because that's my pattern that I can't break away from. I can't help needing her but it makes me embarrassed.
