I'm ready to be done for good. I am becoming aware that an hour a week with a person just isn't enough... having them respond days later after something heartfelt written or sometimes not respond at all to an email is just not enough for me. Having her 'kindly' shove me out the door because my "time" is up, when clearly I'm in the middle of crying is just not good enough for me.. in RL people don't say.. "oh, well... time is up.. I know your right in the middle of processing this major thing but, will have to wait till next week to keep talking daughter/friend/etc." People don't do that. Normally. Or I know you just shared this intimate thing but, you can't call/contact me in that way. So, no calling... People in RL don't do that. And the thing is, I'm really not mad at my therapist- these are just the rules of therapy-- it's ME with the problem. I'm the one who doesn't like the boundaries & they need to be their. It is important for these boundaries to be there for clients and therapists... but, maybe I'm not as tough-skinned as other people... so thats my defect.. not anyone elses.. I'm sure these type of boundaries work great for other people... and thats great for them! but, maybe therapy isn't for me- I'm not wired for it- I'm over emotional and sensitive...I guess I've always kinda felt like the "black sheep" the different one in my family, so its scary walking out of therapy alone... feeling alone...knowing you will just be alone- facing reality man, sometimes reality sucks- I really think I have officially entered adulthood now. Wow. It just makes me feel like a loser sometimes, that I depend on this therapist.. when outside support should be my deepest concern but, when I reach for it I just feel more depressed...So, I hide my feelings and life goes on. A few more sessions and I'm hoping I can be done with therapy for good.