Everyone being nervous about going to a T doesnt exactly help my nerves. U asked how i changed, well i started drinking excessively and he never knew anything about me liking to drink. Also i cut so much more and deeper. Im on a drug though im not addicted. And obviously im so much more suicidal. There's more but i think thats it mainly. God that felt like such a relief to write to actually have in the open. It depressed me so much that no one in my life knows my current mental health. Im going to my T tomorrow - if i dont cancel. Im just nervous about it. Ill sound so stupid since i asked for the appointment bur then i wont even talk. I hate it. I feel si stupid wasting his time. But thnx so much for your latest post it rilly did help me a bit.