I tend to think all emotions we go through are normal, and they often don't make sense. They are some reaction to whatever is happening in our lives, and there is a reason we are feeling them. I don't always know what the reason is, but usually figure it out eventually... I think it is very normal for you to have very intense feelings as you go through this with your son. And I do think for me when I feel something that intensely that it often is something triggered from my own childhood. I don't know you enough to answer more fully than that, but thanks for posting and I hope you continue to let us know how you are doing.