I found out today that my insurance company doesn't have the claim and bill for my T sessions; I guess it got lost in the mail. Anyways, I emailed T today asking if she could email or bring into session last month's bill so I can file another claim. I don't think this is an unreasonable request, and I explained the reasoning behind it. I also told her that i was going to fax it this time so that it wouldn't get lost in the mail.
Anyways, it's been like seven hours and she hasn't emailed back. I know it sounds stupid and obsessive, but I am freaking out. Even if for some reason she can't email me the bill, she could at least tell me that she can't and then bring it into session. Usually when I email her I tell her I don't want a respone, but this time I didn't put that, and I think it's pretty obvious that I want a response b/c it's about logistical things (ie the bill and insurance).
I guess I am just freaking out b/c usually when I ask for a response she gives one within an hour at most. I honestly feel like if she does not email me before session, at least to tell me that she can't email me the bill, then I am ending therapy. Yeah, I know this sounds extreme, but I honestly can't deal with the obsessing and the fact that I feel that I am going to get screwed over for liking someone too much. I would rather be in a position that is not this vulnerable, where I am not freaking out over someone's email. If she does not respond it is over. I just don't like to be in this vulnerable position, and if she doesn't respond it is over. I can't deal with it.