Just reading that made me wish that I knew someone like you in real life, because I related so strongly to everything that you said. I'm still trying to gain what I can out of therapy, but it is so hard, in so many ways. Just before I opened your post I was thinking about how much more of an impact my T has on me compared to my impact on her. The whole thing is hard. And yes, walking out alone, I totally get that. Outside support, what's that? Sorry that you're feeling like you need to be done with it, because I know how hard that must be, to be struggling with that. Life is really lonely and really hard sometimes...I'm sad to hear you feel that way, and struggle with it too. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.