I am experiencing a bit of sadness as the academic year for college comes to an end and I have to leave my T for a little over three months. I had my last session with T today and I am anxious about the summer but I didn't say anything... I trust T but I don't at the same time. Is that possible? I guess I just haven't established a totally trusting relationship with T yet, I have only been seeing T for 3 months. I'm kind of a afraid that I'll never be able to establish a relationship like that, simply because of all the breaks in the school year. This session was the first session where I ever allowed myself to actually tear up (still not crying but I'll take it) and feel real feelings in front of T... kinda sucks I have to leave now. I will be back with T in the fall but I feel like that's so far away . I'm going to be so busy over summer that I probably won't even have to time to think about it, but right now I'm already feeling a bit of sadness that I won't have this outlet available if I really need it over summer. I feel crazy for being so "attached" in a way, I'm just so unused to someone giving a crap about me that "taking it away" is really a test of my patience. It's like I'm a little kid who just got their candy but a big bully just stole it from me.

Anyway...just needed to vent a little I guess.