T was supposed to have H and I down for two hours this Friday since we seldom get in to see him as a couple for marriage counseling. I've been struggling a lot with starting trauma therapy with T2 and wrote T to ask if one hour could be individual therapy and the second hour marriage therapy (instead of both marriage t). He replied that he only had us down for one hour. My H took off work for this session as H works two hours away. I emailed T back that he possibly forgot that we had decided on two hours instead of one hour, and would he have any time tomorrow for individual therapy since we only have one hour on Friday. As per usual form, he hasn't responded. And I knew he wouldn't.

We've talked about this type of thing a lot. I don't know if he knows how much it has worn me down. I don't know if he gets how fricking important all of this is to me. And his lack of response to me (which, by his own admission, has been calculated) just triggers the **** out of me.