Hi J1212. It does sound like things are piling up to the point where they're affecting you badly. I can't know why you're feeling why you do. But I can offer a little thought that might help you understand things in a different way.

It's quite normal to feel stressed about some things. People have stresses every day and cope for the most part but when they seem to pile up and pile up then you have to start thinking...am I the unluckiest person around to have ALL this crap happening to me?

and then think...this isn't normal for anyone to experience. Or at least it's pretty rare. Perhaps people don't get this wound up unless there's something else going on.

Jan I hear your voice in your words and you sound pretty upset. Is it unrealistic to think that whatever is going on that's making you more stressed, anxiety ridden, depressed etc could be coming from something else other than the severity of those problems? I'm not suggesting any dire life changing mental health problem at all. Don't worry about that.

I'm going sound like a cliche maybe but the first things that enter my head here is that #1 It hurts to see someone experiencing pain and I care as much as I can.
and #2 The suggestion that you might be able to speak to a family member[perhaps] or your bf, or family physician. The intent on doing that is to be able find the right people to talk over your concerns and thoughts. To talk with someone who can do some real work with you about these things and their effect on you. TalkTherapy?...antidep medications for awhile perhaps?...group therapies?...there are many options. The right people will know what might be best.

Can you think of any reason why this is a bad idea? I gather you haven't looked at this as an option. Nothing mentioned in your post anyway. You know...What I know about you from your post is little. That's fair to say. You COULD just be going through a temporary rough patch of time. A week/month year...it happens to people. I don't know you well enough to guage otherwise. But I would tell anyone...anytime...to talk with someone who ultimately has the knowledge to assess what you're feeling and go from there.

I'm sorry to go on with all that and mean no offense in any way if i'm not seeing where you're coming from. I was just caught by your post and needed to speak. I hope some things made sense. A little anyway. Take care with it all. I'll check back a bit later[hrs/day or so] to see if you've had something to say, ok? bye Jan1212.