I'm sorry Jazzy and I really identify with what you wrote. I'm in the take a break (maybe permanent) and focus on outside support mode. Therapy isn't on my mind as much as it was when I was going. But it is still on my mind most days, wondering whether it could help or not if I continued.

I'm sorry your t pushed you out while you were crying. That would totally suck. I don't think it necessarily means they don't care though. I think you're at your college t now? I remember in my college the therapists were ridiculously overscheduled. So it could be they really wanted to spend more time with you. But it still sucks that you can't have as much time as you need.

I hope you can have a good ending with your t, whenever you decide to end it, rather than an ending that feels too soon or that feels like it's forced because therapy is hurtful.