konrei--I know how hard it is when you don't have the support IRL. as for accepting yourself for who you are, it took me a long time to accept myself for who I am. I think a lot of people have that problem. that's why you hear so often about people finally "feeling comfortable in their own skin". I am still working on it. It took deep depression and much self reflection and just being so darned tired of not feeling good enough to finally get me to show more of who I really am...but it took me a long time to get here. I hope you will accept yourself much sooner than I took.